Jill Pasquinelli writes: “Dancing the Unknown” in The Main Central Jin Shin Jyutsu Newsletter, issue Number 80, Spring 2013:
Jin Shin Jyutsu has been a part of my life for 31 years now, pretty much most of my adult life. It has accompanied me in health and in illness, through good times and hard times, and has been the constant in my life. Every once in a while I pause to reflect on where I am in the process, the living of Jin Shin Jyutsu and the meaning and understanding it brings me to.
Actually, in all honesty it’s more mysterious than ever. It seems when I think I’ve really come to understand something, the clouds part and there’s an “aha” moment in which something is revealed, and I can discern the bigger picture…much bigger. And inevitably that moment fades…slips away…and I’m left with how little I really know or can grasp. Instead, I’m left with a sense of awe and wonderment and the illumination of another question. It’s humbling to say the least.
What I do know is that only by being in the present can I truly know anything at all. It has to do with a deep listening and a trust in what I hear, which translates to being in communion with the Creator. As Mary said, “When listening to the pulses the first thing you hear is the voice of the Creator. everything after that is your mind.” Part of this is getting our of our own way, putting our ideas aside so we can truly hear what is being spoken. Mary said after every treatment I had with her, “Thank you, God.”
Things move in mysterious ways, and everyone is different and always changing. We study, take classes, experience hands-on, experiment, and develop a deep practice with Jin Shin Jyutsu. And yet there’s something else, something invisible, unknown. This is, I think, what I love the most about Jin Shin Jyutsu.
A client I’m seeing now has a life-threatening illness and has shared with me that life hasn’t been so easy for her. It’s been a struggle to be here on earth, and she feels like she never quite fully came into this world. Now that she’s facing death, she realizes she wants a little more time. There are still things she wants to experience and do. She is a doctor and has just had a re-occurrence. She said to me, “This is an amazing journey. I don’t expect a miracle, but I’m open to one.” Her ability to accept “what is” and to remain open to not knowing is remarkable. And she has the courage to follow her heart in the midst of all this.
She recently went to Yellowstone National Park because she felt drawn to the wolves. She followed a pack of wolves, and on the last day as she was leaving, she found herself staring across the road into the eyes of a black wolf. In the way she described it to me, it was as though she had received darshan. This week she went to Baja to watch the whale migration. She was able to touch them as they came right up to the boat. She listened to their sounds throughout the night as she camped. She was filled with the spirit of whale when she came back. She said, “Life was so complete, so whole, I could have died right then, and it would have been o.k. They’re in my cells!” I have no doubt that part of her medicine is connecting with these animals. They are there, waiting for her, calling her. She experienced a sense of the eternal, where past, present and future all come together in a moment. There was no separation, just connection, beyond time and space and life and death.
It’s all alchemy. Anything can spark and initiate the movement into the process of transformation and healing…a word, a touch, a relationship, music, a bird, even our last breath. What heals us doesn’t have to do with life or death, or the body for that matter. It’s so far beyond that, it seems to me, much larger than we can grasp. but it requires that same listening that Mary was referencing. Whether it’s nature, chemotherapy, vitamins, Jin Shin Jyutsu antidepressants, homeopathy, whales, art, surgery, chocolate, eagles flowers, meditation or wolves that brings us there, it’s the work of our soul and spirit, that which is indestructible within us, that transforms us.
As practitioners we simply facilitate “what is”, whether it’s life or death. There is no better way, or more advanced way. I no longer feel one thing is better than another. Instead I see it as our discovery of what moves us, what has meaning. Therein is the magic in all this. We study and observe and participate, which leads us to discover and be our own destiny. To me this is Now Know Myself. Being in the moment, being true is what informs our ability to make the choices we do, whether it’s which flows to use, to take or not take medicine, to be in nature, but surely to dance all of this into our unique expression.
Thank you, Jill.
Thank you, Mary.
Thank you, David.
Gassho, Namaste, Blessings
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