Jill Marie Pasquinelli writes: “What If there’s Nothing To Do?” in The Main Central Jin Shin Jyutsu Newsletter, issue Number 75, Winter 2012:
Debbie called for a Jin Shin Jyutsu appointment in May. I was leaving for a five-week trip so after much back and forth we ended up scheduling an appointment two months down the road. She never said why she wanted to come other than she had a lot of stressful things going on in her life.
The day before her appointment it occurred to me to call her to remind her but a little voice told me not to. I thought, “If she comes, great; if not, it isn’t meant to be.”
The next day Debbie showed up at 10 a.m. for her appointment. She seemed a little flustered as she walked into my office. She put her things down and turned to me and said, “I wanted to cancel this appointment, but I couldn’t find your number. I’ve been looking for it for two weeks. So, I’m here, but I’m not sure why.”
My decision not to call her the day before seemed more interesting. I thought about how mysterious destiny can be. I had no idea why she came. I was impressed that she actually showed up at all. It just seemed like it was meant to be for reasons neither of us could see. I didn’t really have anything to say. So after an awkward silence, I asked, “Is there anything you want to tell me?” I didn’t know if she was going to stay or leave, talk or get on the table. So I just let it be and waited. Something in me told me to just be still and listen.
Debbie started talking. She told me she had been a healer for many years and had worked with a lot of well-known people in the field. She had grown tired of the whole thing – the whole premise of leading a deep and spiritual life, evolving towards something bigger and better, learning lessons while on this journey towards aspiring to greater spiritual heights, ultimately wanting things to be different. “I just want to face life as it is, whatever is going on. I want to be in it, living it, rather than trying to be somewhere else. I’m not in a good space right now, but I want to experience where I am, accept how I’m feeling, not trying to make anything better – giving up hope altogether. I’m not here to heal, or have you heal me, or get better. It’s not about anything. So, I don’t know why I’m here.”
I thought for a moment before I said, “I know what you mean. Jin Shin Jyutsu just helps me to be where I am, no matter what is going on.”
Without another word Debbie got on the table. We didn’t speak a word during the treatment. Mary’s words “It is as it is and as it is it is” came alive to me. You can hear something a thousand times, and then all of a sudden you really know what it means…those “aha” moments Mary used to talk about.
In listening to Debbie’s pulses I could tell she was a doer and had a lot of stress in her mind, in her life. I didn’t know any of the specifics, I didn’t need to know. I was just listening in the silence. I could feel her falling into a deep state of relaxation. It was very peaceful. There was something reassuring about the silence…two strangers, yet an unspoken intimacy in a moment in time…one without words or understanding…just a simple state of being…nothing less than miraculous…nothing more than ordinary.
At the end of the treatment Debbie opened her eyes and was quiet. She sat up and said, “It’s true, there really is joy. Joy does exist.”
I didn’t need feel I needed to see Debbie again, and she didn’t mention further treatments. All I knew was that her spirit was lifted. She seemed lighter as she opened the door and said goodbye. “Thank you,” she said. It was genuine. I didn’t know who was thanking whom. It was just a brief interlude where I felt our lives had been touched by something greater, something unnameable but beautiful and sacred. I was touched.
I remember Mary saying, “Sometimes all a person needs is one treatment. It changes everything.” I had never experienced that in my years of giving treatments, until today.
Thank you, Jill.
Thank you, Mary.
Thank you, David
Gassho, Namaste, Blessings
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