Jill Pasquinelli writes: “In Communion” in The Main Central Jin Shin Jyutsu Newsletter, issue Number 74, Fall 2011:
Paula seemed relieved to hear this and quickly agreed that she knew she was in shock, that this was the first layer, and the she felt numb and hadn’t been able to cry.
I was using the Breathing Flow, which I find to be very soothing and relaxing for someone in a deep grief process, or any situation that can take your breath away.
After a while Paula said, “You’re making me feel sad. I haven’t been able to feel this.” I just nodded and said that it wasn’t me making her feel sad but her own feelings arising and bubbling up to the surface. As I was giving her the Mediator Flow, she started describing how the flow was moving in her body, tracing the feeling up her arm, across her chest, and continuing to follow it through her own body. I was amazed as she continued to trace the pathways that I had spent so many hours studying, so simply and effortlessly, watching and witnessing that as some of the numbness was lifting she increasingly became more aware of the sensations in her body. She was inhabiting and claiming herself. She was, after all, alive.
This led me to thinking about the innate knowledge that we have, the deep inner knowing. Watching Paula as she tracked the deep inner movement of her life in her being, her husband Frank, who went from one day doing surgery to the next day being in the acute state of the dying process…Wow, how could this be?
It’s hard to wrap my head around it. It seems like performing surgery was such an intrinsic part of his being; he was the artist. It wasn’t just technique.
Then I found myself thinking about Mary, who could no longer teach Jin Shin Jyutsu classes after her accident, though her hands held this deep knowing which went beyond the tangible, the mind, the years of studying and training, beyond words and actions to become something much deeper…a wisdom without thought that comes from simply being present where past, present, and future meld together…maybe a part of the privilege of being human.
Thank you, Jill.
Thank you, Mary.
Thank you, David.
Gassho, Namaste, Blessings
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