In The Main Central Jin Shin Jyutsu Newsletter, issue Number 54, Fall 2006, Siew Kuan Lee (Kuala Lumpur, Maylasia) shares her understanding of:
Being Aware and Understanding My Big Toes
After moving back to my home country from the States, I never stopped receiving wisdom from the two Jin Shin Jyutsu Textbooks and the three Self-Help Books.
I was aware that I have been quite conscious of the lifted up, unearthed big toe on both feet recently and noticed that my fingers are always wrapping around them whenever I am sitting in the living room alone, chatting with friends or simply watching TV.
A few weeks ago, I took a trip to Bangkok and was constantly on my feet for hours. I felt my lower back aching for the very first time and wondered which depth is stressed with walking. I was surprised when I found out it was the 5th Depth, harmonized through the little finger and big toe.
Big toe and little finger… That has to do with the attitude of try to and pretense. What is really meant by the attitude of try to and pretense, I always wondered.
One night while watching TV, I was sitting with legs crossed and holding my two eg toes. All ofa sudden, dawned on me how hard I try to do and be someone useful in life – and where I am experiencing life from a place of wanting and trying to be a better me. Pictures flashed before my eyes of how hard I tried to achieve my high standards in life and pretended to be one who never exists except in my mind.
I heard this voice within speaking out: “Sweetheart, you can’t make yourself be someone when EVERYTHING you want to be is already INNATELY INSIDE of you.”
I felt a sense of relief, the shoulder releasing as I SEE what I am doing to myself. In the awareness of that, I noticed the tears started to have a life of their own and felt the breath getting into places where I have never experienced before THIS moment. Thank you, little toe, thank you for letting me into the non-secret secret through the awareness and understanding of you. I am starting to LISTEN just NOW.
Thank you, Siew Kuan.
Thank you, Mary.
Thank you, David.
I’m not sure I’m ready
for the sublime
I still enjoy
meter and rhyme
streams and lakes
matinees and pearls
whipping cream swirls
friends who are funny
backgammon and rummy
Do these change on Cosmic Planes?
When we’re finished exploring
our interesting fates
guru and physics and
can we dance?
By Marcie’l Mizerak – an earlier client of Mary’s in Los Angeles